Yesterday, I was very down & mood-less during dance practice. I just couldn't focus and do my best. I kept making the same mistakes until I got really pissed off with myself I just didn't know whether I should cry or scream at myself.

Today, I'm still feeling sentimental. I got myself jealous for nothing for the fact that my BFF has a closer bestfriend which she often refers to as 'best friend' and me as 'babygirl'. I felt that best friend has a deeper meaning than the term 'babygirl'. Furthermore, she spends more time with her than with me. And that's because:

1) BFF and me were NEVER been from the same school before; be it primary, secondary & tertiary

2) The fact that now I'm a full-time working girl whereas she's still catching up on her FYP hence our time always clash with each other 'cause I'm working shifts while on the other hand, she has to finish up her assignments/projects/attend tutorials/lectures etc.

3) When I'm free, she's not free and when I'm not free, she is free.

On top of that, my girlfriendship with Sharlize has also getting distant. She's been meeting new people in her life and making more new friends. But me? Pathetic. I made none. And that's because I'm working now. Working life sucks afterall. I wish I'm back in school.

I really miss school.

Yours truly.